Sunday, February 5, 2012
Vacation from cancer
Paul and I have been in Cabo San Lucas relaxing since last Wednesday. We decided to take a break before my surgery next Thursday. It has been nice to have no drs appointments or tests. Also, I am feeling really good, I ended up getting the blood transfusion and I think that helped. We have played tennis twice and I actually ran a mile yesterday and did OK. I am not pushing myself with running because after the mastectomy I won't be able to run anyway for a while. We went whale watching and saw some grey and humpback whales up close. Other than that, we have sat at the beach and by the pool, and have done a lot of reading. I love Jane Austin and have been reading Sense and Sensibility. I wish I could stay here for longer because I know when I get back I'm going to have to face the reality of my upcoming surgery next Thursdsay the 9th. I know I have to do it, and have been looking forward to getting it done, but when it comes right down to it, I am scared. I do not want to have my breasts cut off. I am also worried what will be found during the surgery, like how big the tumor actually is, and how many lymph nodes are involved. Paul keeps reassuring me that everything is going to be okay, and I am trying to focus on that. We are fasting today for strength, and that everything with the surgery will go well. I spoke in church last Sunday, the topic was choose you this day. I decided to talk about choosing how to react to, and staying strong and faithful during trials. Preparing for this talk helped me to remember what is most important in my life, my family, and my faith. A girl came up to me in the lobby of the hotel, she noticed that I was goig through cancer, and had gone through the same exact thing as me 1 year ago. She said how she turned to Jesus for help and was helped by prayer during her darkest times. Such good advice! A scripture I came across the other day talked about how god works by light rather than darkness. So true! I will update my blog after the surgery to let everyone know how it went.